Expectations

I've learned in the past few months that you can't expect anything. If you expect things, you're only going to be disappointed. For instance, if you're expecting someone to call you, and they don't, what do you get? Disappointment. If you're like me, and you don't receive that phone call, you end up thinking about it all day and it drives you into a depressive state. Another example would be when you expect someone to be great; you think they're going to make something out of themselves. Ya know what will happen if you do that? They won't end up doing anything impressive. Take my brother Adam, for example. Adam was amazingly smart. He knew exactly what he wanted in life. Adam was...well...Adam was somewhat of a genius. Everyone in my family, including Adam's wife, thought that he was going to be something amazing; someone famous. Adam could write his own rap music, he was good with computers, he could take apart and put together a watch, Adam could do some amazing stuff. But...see, we EXPECTED him to make something out of it. And, go figure, we were disappointed. Now, Adam's not doing anything but ruining the life he'd worked so hard for. He's throwing it all away and, because he's so damn proud, he won't admit it. After all the disappointment and everything that I've gone and been through...I've been trying not to expect anything. Sometimes I can't help it. Even when I KNOW that Alex isn't going to call, I find myself crying when he doesn't. When I expect people to come over, and they don't, I find myself being in a pissy mood. The point is, expecting things from people won't get you anywhere. Expectations lead to disappointment. Teacher's especially know this. When a teacher expects a kid to shut up, and they don't, they get all upset and pissed off. It's the same thing. But with every situation, it gets worse and worse. I guess all I'm trying to say is don't be disappointed when what you expect doesn't turn out. Because it hardly ever does.

-BloodyShadows