Twisted

How many times has someone gotten into your mind? Someone that you don't even like. They get into your head just by looking at you and saying something as simple as "hi". Believe me, it happens every time I see one person. My old friend Brett. Brett and I used to be really tight. We were close friends for a few months. He came over every day and we hung out when Alex wasn't able to come over. Brett isn't/wasn't exactly bad looking (no offence Alex. I still love you. LOL) and I thought he was pretty cool Obviously Brett and Alex never really saw eye to eye. Anyways, one day over summer, I'd say maybe in...Eh...June or July, we got in a BIG fight and we haven't really been good since. Brett and I still talk sometimes but we're still not really on the right foot. But...I've noticed something odd about this guy. Every time I would talk to this kid, my mind would scramble. I don't know why. It's weird.

Take today for instance. Brett recently transferred to my school. So today after lunch, my friend and I are walking down the hall and I see Brett. I try to ignore him and not say anything and he catches me. He said hi and I did everything I could not to turn around. Well...mission failed. And when I met his eyes, I suddenly started questioning why I wasn't his friend and why he was so bad. It's insane. It's like he tries to drag me back into his little world. I can't go back though. I can't do that to myself again. The thing about people like this, is that they do it on purpose. People that scramble our minds must have like a sixth sense. I don't understand this, but Brett can somehow make me think the opposite of what I feel. For instance, when we were hanging out, he had me thinking I liked him, even though I was with Alex. It's not true of course. Here's the odd thing. I only felt that way when he was around and when he was talking about himself. Brett also makes me think that he's perfect. I don't know how he does it. The only way I keep myself normal and in control is by ignoring him and not looking at him. When I saw him today, I shot straight down the hall and ended up slamming into Alex by accident. I don't think I've ever clung to Alex like that before. Sure freaked him out a little. Though he can't say he hated the attention. ;)

I guess my point of the day is that these people can only create false feelings. Nothing is real. It's all an illusion. Brett can really mess up my mind. One of my life missions is to figure out how the kid does it. It's a very odd thing. Every time I talk to Brett, I have to remind myself of a few things: 1) I love Alex and I'm committed to him, 2) Brett has a bad side to him that he hides from people, and 3) There's reasons why I don't hang out with Brett (i.e. he lies, he's got SERIOUS anger problems, he's violent, he talks about people behind their backs, etc.). If I keep all these things in mind, I don't get all scrambled up. Just keep this in mind if you find yourself being tricked by a guy or girl like Brett; don't get too close to them. Don't try to form any relationship. Because once you're twisted, it's really hard to set yourself straight again. Believe me. I'm still trying...

-BloodyShadows